iced chai with pumpkin cold foam
I guess the title is a bit random, but I feel like it’s been a defining factor of my life in recent days for absolutely no reason. I was at Starbucks a couple days, ago, and the barista asked me if I just wanted pumpkin flavoring or cold foam, then proceeded to tell me the cold foam was really good, so I caved. it was very good. in no way do I regret my decision.
so it was just a day of discovery. and the next few days ended up being more days of discovery and new experiences, realizing that sometimes I can be sheltered as hell and need to experience more.
a couple days ago, I finished this novel titled “Today, Tonight, Tomorrow.” it was an absolutely adorable teen romance, i devoured it in hours and stayed up till 2:30am reading on a school night before a calc test. completely worth it. anyways, I saw a lot of myself in the main character; she’s hardworking, very committed, spreads herself thin, but still likes to have fun and has her passions outside of school. I also saw a lot of things I want to be in her: more confident, more assertive, and the matter of having a job. yeah, all things i would greatly desire.
I feel so emotionally connected to this book. I can’t stop thinking about it, i’m so obsessed. I’ve definitely reread it a couple times since, and I’m just in love with the concept and everything about it.
another big thing that happened today, I got my driver’s license! and I really can’t decide how I feel about it. it’s the thing I was most excited about for years, especially in the last 6 months. I’ve idealized the thought of having a driver’s license so much that I was really convinced that my life was going to be so different with a license. now, I’ve accomplished this huge, major goal, but I’m not so sure I’m going to live up to my own past expectations.
I’ve been struggling in school more so these past couple weeks than at any point throughout this year thus far. It’s been very emotionally draining, and I shed some tears over AP Physics today to my mother, but I think I’ve gotten to a place where I care just enough about school to thrive. It just slipped my mind that even though you’re more calm about something, it doesn’t mean it won’t affect you at all.
but, yeah. I think I’m going to get an iced chai with pumpkin cold foam tomorrow when I drive to school by myself for the first time. I think it’ll be something.
