“insufficient”

we all know what this means, so i’m going to skip to the gist of it.

i’ve been spending an unreasonable amount of time hitting the books, and by that, i mean the novels that calm me down and help me find peace. it’s been unproductive, but nice.

but right now, i can’t shake the feeling that i’ve spent my entire high school career being insufficient. i mean, i’m constantly around people who have found their thing and are really good at it. i know there are things i’m good at, a lot of them, but it feels different. why does it feel like i’m just subpar in comparison, like i’m an imposter while everyone else is actually fulfilling their potential.

i mean, hell, the kids who aren’t excelling in school have their sports, and then there are kids who do both. where did i go wrong?

did i go wrong?